5 minute window

{ October 21, 2009 @ 1:51 pm } · { Ideas blogged, Vampirism }
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I have a few minutes between activities. My new team is starting to shape up. I’m looking forward to seeing what and who will be in my team starting in late November. Only a few weeks left and the switchover occurs.

 
 

From what I see, I have a few good people coming over and some opportunities. If I can get the people who have good opportunities but are good at their core skills, I can work with them. I’m looking forward to the change in pace and the change of people. It’s been a very long 6 months with my current team of challenges. I’m looking forward to having different, and hopefully fewer, core skill challenges.

 
 

I’m tired. I can’t seem to maintain energy. Someone else quit today, probably because the stress associated with my job is pretty high and the work load is a little insane. I will keep the pace and keep moving along. I know that these types of jobs carry a great deal of responsibility and a great deal of work along with them. I, for one, intend to bring things together and enjoy the work ahead.

 
 

I need to hunt. Tonight.

Day off

{ October 19, 2009 @ 2:45 pm } · { 1 }
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This is shaping up to be one of those days. I suppose it’s not all bad. I’m going shopping in a few minutes for a little black dress for my cousin’s wedding. And on top of that I got my nails done this weekend, so it has been a good day overall.

 
 

I’m sleepy and a little energy low, I know that this isn’t a good state to be in at the start of the week. I am seeing my previous donor again off and on. More off than on. I suppose that doesn’t help either. I ought to go energy hunting more often than I do; before this gets to crisis stage again. I don’t think I can afford what comes along with that.

 
 

The Flip Video

{ October 18, 2009 @ 8:06 pm } · { 1 }
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I went out and got a flip video camera. This little HD device rocks! So much better than ordinary video and it allows me to quickly post up to myspace and youtube. I am pretty stoked. So when I get some appropriate posts I will put them online for all to see.

Towards the dark moon

{ October 14, 2009 @ 12:54 am } · { Nothingness }
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A lot of crazy crap is going down at work these days. Working for a large corporation, you see a lot of strange things happen and compliance is a much bigger issue than it would be in smaller companies. All I can safely say is that I am glad to be free of the general rumor mill during times like these. I’m afraid a shakedown is coming; this is going to be a shakedown of large proportions and only time is going to tell the full tale.

The dark moon comes. I think it’s seriously time to consider some vampire magick. Scary stuff ahead. I will write more as it comes.

Monday Night madness

{ October 13, 2009 @ 12:48 am } · { Ideas blogged, Vampirism }
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I took a long weekend again this weekend. I feel so tired and toasted from working way too hard.

This evening I happened upon a web site for magic spells. It’s a community of witches and the like to get together and share a repository of knowledge. I joined the coven online there for the Daughters of the Moon. Interesting little group. No one has posted to the group since last month, so it’s obviously a slow moving thing.

So I went to look at some of the spells that are shared among the users and OMG. The site is chock full of fluff bunnies and a good portion of the spells I visited are either of the dangerous type children should not have access to, or they are just plain… powerless, for lack of a better way to put it. Maybe it’s the media by which these spells are being shared, but a few of them couldn’t blow out a candle even if they were aided by a freak tornado.

Anyways, the real reason for this post: the Goddess Nyx is becoming more secularized thanks to the vampire fiction that is going around in the world these days. Now there are vampires and wannabe vampires that are all hailing Nyx, the goddess of the vampires. I’m not sure where this reputation comes from. Nyx is the night mother, yes, but she is not specifically the goddess of vampires. There are many gods and goddesses that could be the patron deity of a vampire. Many of them will fit the bill, but to call Nyx the vampire goddess seems to be a bit of a misnomer.

I became a follower of Nyx long before I understood my vampiric nature and it was because I longed for and felt strongest kinship with the night. I look into the night sky and sense peace in my mind. It’s not because of the moon, it is because of the energy that exists when night falls. Konstantinos stated it best. Psychic quiet hours are the best hours of the day for me. Not a lot of psychic chatter like there is in the day time.

Do I need energy? You bet.

Random thoughts on a Saturday

{ October 3, 2009 @ 4:03 pm } · { 1 }
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It’s Saturday and it’s blissfully slow. I don’t have a whole lot of anything to do today except catch up on performance improvement stuff. That’s already done. I have 2 quality sessions tonight that are going to be longer than necessary, but on the whole Saturday is turning out to be its typical slow day.

 
 

Energy wise, things are going pretty smoothly. We are turning toward the darker half of the year and that’s always a bonus for me. I think that based on the cycle of the year, I get stronger in the winter and weaker as summer rolls to full strength. Not that I don’t like the sun, but I certainly prefer the cold dark of winter nights. Maybe that makes me strange…

End of month

{ September 30, 2009 @ 11:39 am } · { 1 }
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This is a crazy month indeed. Trying to keep my energy up and stay positive throughout, and it’s not a very easy thing to do. Mostly I feel tired and drained by the end of the month. It’s a good thing that the month is ending finally.

 
 

Winter is finally on its way and we will see what the darkness brings. I prefer the dark months of the year, they fit my persona and my own internal self much better than the summer months. I look forward to the colder hours and the earlier, longer nights. With the return of the darker months, my energy also waxes.

 
 

I forgot to mark the passing of the equinox this time. But in my heart and spirit, I sense the changes coming. Long live the winter nights and the cold heart of the Earth in winter.

Mobile wordpress

{ September 16, 2009 @ 4:42 am } · { 1 }
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Finally got this one working. I’m trying to determine the functionality of Opera mini and blogging for Bebarlang.com.

Am way too awake considering that I need to be at work in a very few short hours. Crap.

Working hard

{ September 12, 2009 @ 2:39 pm } · { Ideas blogged }
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It’s another Saturday at work and it’s slow, thankfully. Having said that, I’ll probably get busy really quick here. It’s so quiet on Saturdays that it’s a great day to be in the office altogether. I had a great conversation with someone here at work for about an hour. Talking about politics is always interesting with likeminded people.

 
 

I am neither Republican nor Democratic. I am, however, conservative. I think that’s got a lot to do with my upbringing. I’m simply aligned with the good old standards of work hard, contribute to society, and don’t be a burden. Every month, new tax relief programs and stimulus packages come out for those who “need it”. It’s paid for by people like me who make a serious effort to not be a burden to society. What’s my reward, and where is it?

 
 

The times are hard for everyone, and I’m not going to see any relief other than to pay higher taxes. The middle class is, indeed, getting screwed and the bottom-feeders? Well maybe now is a good time to go unemployed with the masses.

Energy restoration

{ September 8, 2009 @ 12:02 am } · { Astral Projection, Hunting, Vampirism }
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Tomorrow is a big corporate day for me. I have to get up early and make some serious preparations. But tonight there were preparations to make as well. I finished laundry and did some minor reparations to the suit I’m going to wear tomorrow. Then I needed to feed energy. Just to settle in and have enough to be ready for a tough day.

I went and found some from one of my regular victims. He doesn’t know, of course, since he works with me. But I’ve always thought his energy was fantastic; strong and uncompromising in nature. Then I went and took a lot of energy from the mysterious song bird who practices at full blast with her window open at the apartments. She’s actually not a very good singer and I had to yell at her in the parking lot to shut up. I’m sure she prays for protection from her christian god. But I suppose he doesn’t answer. Her energy was quite satisfying and was a nice compliment to my own.

Feeding energy to me is like opening a pathway into their energy cores. Of course, using the analogy of a vampire, a bite to the neck is the easiest way to pop the cork, so to speak. Although I am astral, and they may be awake, I can sense a strong influx of energy. It’s like warm air entering in a pulsing rhythm. It’s warm, alive, and electric in nature as it passes into my own deficient system and powers up the individual centers. The sensation is like getting drunk without the alcohol and the hangover in the morning, so to speak.

I feasted until I felt balanced and it lasted for about 15 minutes altogether. Tomorrow will be an interesting and worthwhile fight.

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