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Tomorrow is a big corporate day for me. I have to get up early and make some serious preparations. But tonight there were preparations to make as well. I finished laundry and did some minor reparations to the suit I’m going to wear tomorrow. Then I needed to feed energy. Just to settle in and have enough to be ready for a tough day.

I went and found some from one of my regular victims. He doesn’t know, of course, since he works with me. But I’ve always thought his energy was fantastic; strong and uncompromising in nature. Then I went and took a lot of energy from the mysterious song bird who practices at full blast with her window open at the apartments. She’s actually not a very good singer and I had to yell at her in the parking lot to shut up. I’m sure she prays for protection from her christian god. But I suppose he doesn’t answer. Her energy was quite satisfying and was a nice compliment to my own.

Feeding energy to me is like opening a pathway into their energy cores. Of course, using the analogy of a vampire, a bite to the neck is the easiest way to pop the cork, so to speak. Although I am astral, and they may be awake, I can sense a strong influx of energy. It’s like warm air entering in a pulsing rhythm. It’s warm, alive, and electric in nature as it passes into my own deficient system and powers up the individual centers. The sensation is like getting drunk without the alcohol and the hangover in the morning, so to speak.

I feasted until I felt balanced and it lasted for about 15 minutes altogether. Tomorrow will be an interesting and worthwhile fight.

I suppose that it’s about time I got something to follow me home. There’s only so much you can do on the astral level before you find yourself at the bad receiving end, as it were.

On the early morning of the 18th, I went astral hunting. I took energy from 3 different people. 2 were successful that I can determine. 1 was just blocked too well. The following night, I woke with a start. There was something else in my bed with me. I was having a nightmare that involved my aunt on my mom’s side. She is married to my mom’s brother. I can’t remember now what she was saying, but it was a nightmare. I remember feeling scared of something that was following me.

Well, when I woke up, that someone was still there. I woke like one does from any night terror. You get sleep paralysis and are stuck between realm of awake and asleep/ conscious and unconscious. That someone was named Emily and she had her arm wrapped around me. Was a strange sensation indeed. I broke free, which is fairly easy to do once you realize what’s going on and take control.

After immediately focusing on the energy in the room with me, I willfully told it to leave and began feeding off this entity. I drew its energy into me and it reminded me of day old milk. This is the best descriptor for energy that is fading in a way, like it’s a spirit of someone recently passed. It sort of reminds me of a fading thought.

There is, btw, someone in waking life that I know named Emily. I haven’t thought to ask my mom about her; she’s more of an acquaintance of my mother’s than an acquaintance of mine. I’m going to assume it’s unrelated to this person. But the energy was similar. I might have to think about it some more. Maybe it’s a warning of some kind. All I know is it kind of scared me at first, then it made me mad and bugged me.

After telling it to go away, I spent some time and went astral to feed off of it then carefully closed the connection behind me. I shielded, which is something I rarely see a need for, and went back to sleep.

I love the very early morning hours when I wake up unexpectedly. It’s so quiet and the energy in the city is so still. It’s almost a palpable sense of oppressive darkness when no one else is quite awake yet. The energy is still. It’s not the hectic craziness that one comes to expect out of a normal day with waking minds all around.

This morning I was awake shortly before 5:00am. Normally on a week day, this might be a little bit later in the morning for taking energy; more people get up early on week days. However today, it’s the weekend. I found that most of the world was still and quiet on every level.

There were noises in the parking lot this morning. It was the popping of fire crackers. So I sent out my awareness to these kids that were shooting firecrackers in the dead of morning. I sank into one of their energy centers and began to draw energy down into my remote awareness. Within a few minutes they were gone.

I went to another person afterwards. His energy is interesting. It almost feels void. It’s neutral to the extreme in that it doesn’t really even feel a lot like prana. Then, after taking some energy, I realized it’s not so much void as it is very condensed. It doesn’t feel like taking energy from other people. After a few moments, I realized I was only feeding off a personal shield he has set up. That’s the only real explanation for it. It feels muted, but the energy is definitely his.

There was someone else in the bed, so I went to this female energy instead. The energy flow was instant and satisfying.

Every time I take the prana of a person, the feel of the energy is slightly different. That’s to be expected, and it only varies very subtly one to the other, so unless you know what you are looking for, it may all seem the same.

This is the first time I’ve encountered someone’s shield. It was quite interesting and it’s something I will have to remember for the future. Today I feel pretty good. I’m a little sleepy, but that’s to be expected with getting up so early and being up so late. It’s the end of a work week, and I’m grateful for that. I look forward to a quiet evening at home.

I couldn’t get out of body earlier so I gave up and went to sleep instead. As usual, I woke up a little bit after 4am feeling the need to take energy. I fired up the binaural program again and turned on the speakers. It was much less distracting and was very easy to get through my mental routine to project. I didn’t even have interference from my physical self much.

I’m wondering if it’s not easier at this time of the night considering my body is still in sleep mode for the most part. Plus, it’s psychic quiet hours still. There are very few people up and about at this time of the morning, so there’s less psychic interference than at 11pm or even midnight.

After going through the initial countdown, I found myself at my castle on the astral plane. I was wearing a dark cloak of black with the hood up; not an unusual thing for me to be wearing subconsciously. My first thought was to enter the cathedral, but instead I opted for the garden. Of course the moon was out and shining overhead. I powered up the crystal fountain and water began flowing down the crystalline rocks. I looked into the water’s surface and saw my hooded figure. My face was obscured totally in darkness.

I focused on the energy of the one I have been feeding off of lately, separating her energy from the energy fields I am familiar with. Of course, she was sleeping soundly in her bed. I focused on her energy signature and went for the throat chakra first. I initiated an energy drain and rather than moving to the individual energy points, I focused instead on absorbing their energy through the one point. I drank of her energy for some time, but it was a focused drain. It wasn’t a flood of energy.

Not content, I had another thought and went for the chakra in the back of the neck instead that’s higher up. Some energy systems note this chakra as the zeal point. It is designated by the G# on the music scale, appearing between the throat and the third eye. Commonly, this chakra is associated with the color pink. Upon finding this point, the energy began to flow freely.

Also I have found it’s easier to focus on other chakras by repeating mentally to myself the energy that I am taking from. I’m not sure what inspired me to attach to the zeal point this morning, but it had fantastic results. Maybe the point of energy one attaches to makes a difference in the flow of energy. Certain centers allow a freer flow of energy than others.

I returned to myself shortly afterwards. This evening I heard a voice in my head telling me to stop. I ignored it for about a minute or two before actually disengaging. I’m fairly certain where that voice was coming from… but that is reserved for a private entry.

This week has gotten off to a harsh start. I got home on Monday night, the last night of my weekend, and discovered upon checking work email that the interview I am taking for the position I want was the following day. In anticipation of a really hard interview, I stayed up very late preparing. The interview was easier than I thought as a result, and that was a good thing. However I rushed my 30-60-90 day presentation and it was weaker than I would have liked.

I couldn’t sleep well last night and am tired tonight, but unable to fall asleep.

The reason? I need to hunt. I don’t mean some energy net, and I don’t mean ambient feeding. I mean I need a meaningful feed. There are two ways I’ve discovered to get this: an intimate relationship, which I have foregone for a few months, or astral travel to feed off someone.

The last successful astral hunt occurred on June 9th. That was almost a week ago now. It might not seem like a long time for others, but for me it is. The environment I work in is not conducive to being energy deficient. Quite the opposite; one has to be on top of their game and full of energy due to the drain and strain of daily activity. Not to mention that there are others there that are draining to be around by nature without being vampiric.

Tonight, I am at home and I have the opportunity to hunt. I pick my target and go. Sleep well. A small vampire bat can hardly harm you in your sleep.